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tiamatschild) wrote2010-05-14 10:23 am
tiamatschild) wrote2010-05-14 10:23 am
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I am all frustrated with myself this morning and do not know why!
Well, that is not true. I know why. I am annoyed at myself for not being the perfect communicator every minute of every day - I screw up! Maybe I hurt friends and family with my slips! They haven't said so, but they might not, because they are hurt! It is bad. Also, I haven't done much cooking this week, clearly this makes me a horrible person.
Yes, thank you, spiky green shoulder monkeys. We all needed that dose of irrationality in our day.
On the other hand, I am doing much better because you see, I am not curled up in a ball somewhere sobbing my heart out over this. Instead I'm doing laundry and writing up an entry and hanging out with the puppy (and the grown up Nelly dog - wow, are they ever noisy). And actually, I feel pretty good. I mean, sure, frustration, but on the other hand I feel light and happy and effervescent. The sun's finally come out, everything's green and dramatic after several days of rain, and it's warm enough not to freeze in bare feet in the grass without being at all hot.
I have no idea if this is helped along by the medication, or by the fact that things are actually going really good or what. But I'm here! Doing stuff! Not huddled up under my blankets with a confused cat purring on my feet! So that's a good thing.
And I've got stuff I want to write about and right this moment I actually feel like I can! It's a good thing. I'll work on that in a bit, once I'm further on the laundry.
(Speaking of laundry - Look, new icons~! for the first time in. Um. Two years, I think?)
Well, that is not true. I know why. I am annoyed at myself for not being the perfect communicator every minute of every day - I screw up! Maybe I hurt friends and family with my slips! They haven't said so, but they might not, because they are hurt! It is bad. Also, I haven't done much cooking this week, clearly this makes me a horrible person.
Yes, thank you, spiky green shoulder monkeys. We all needed that dose of irrationality in our day.
On the other hand, I am doing much better because you see, I am not curled up in a ball somewhere sobbing my heart out over this. Instead I'm doing laundry and writing up an entry and hanging out with the puppy (and the grown up Nelly dog - wow, are they ever noisy). And actually, I feel pretty good. I mean, sure, frustration, but on the other hand I feel light and happy and effervescent. The sun's finally come out, everything's green and dramatic after several days of rain, and it's warm enough not to freeze in bare feet in the grass without being at all hot.
I have no idea if this is helped along by the medication, or by the fact that things are actually going really good or what. But I'm here! Doing stuff! Not huddled up under my blankets with a confused cat purring on my feet! So that's a good thing.
And I've got stuff I want to write about and right this moment I actually feel like I can! It's a good thing. I'll work on that in a bit, once I'm further on the laundry.
(Speaking of laundry - Look, new icons~! for the first time in. Um. Two years, I think?)