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tiamatschild) wrote2015-08-09 07:12 pm
tiamatschild) wrote2015-08-09 07:12 pm
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There's something sort of freeing in realizing you're going to feel like shit no matter what you do, whether you post about your writing projects or post fic or post weird early modern illustrations of monkeys or whether you don't post those things and in fact don't post anything at all so you might as well go ahead and do it right? because the consequences are gonna be basically the same whatever, the only thing that changes is what your brain latches onto to hurt you with!
And anyway, the theory is that if you just do those things that make you feel so bad and instead of running away from it you just kind of wait it out eventually it'll be like, normal people levels of awful instead of "no I couldn't possibly give a speech and pin a medal on front of the president in front of everybody and the cameras!!!" level awful to you know. post fic. or stuff about how you're feeling. or what you're writing. or. cats.
*crinkles nose* I kind of want to delete this because part of me thinks even writing it in the first place is complaining and fishing for sympathy and being a horrible person and so on. but that probably means I should post it. So I guess I will!
And anyway, the theory is that if you just do those things that make you feel so bad and instead of running away from it you just kind of wait it out eventually it'll be like, normal people levels of awful instead of "no I couldn't possibly give a speech and pin a medal on front of the president in front of everybody and the cameras!!!" level awful to you know. post fic. or stuff about how you're feeling. or what you're writing. or. cats.
*crinkles nose* I kind of want to delete this because part of me thinks even writing it in the first place is complaining and fishing for sympathy and being a horrible person and so on. but that probably means I should post it. So I guess I will!