I could go for being more stable. That'd be nice.

[tiamatschild]

I'm going to have to have an uncomfortable conversation with my mother. I really, really, really don't want to have it, but I can't possibly avoid it, and it's making me so upset I can't sleep. I can't stop thinking about it. I want to cry but I can't quite seem to, and I'm sick to my stomach with self loathing and fear.

It's stupid! It's my mother! She loves me! I'm just going to point out some things about a situation she admits she doesn't know the full story on! It's no big deal!

But I'm still panicking about it.

The social anxiety can go home now. It is not wanted at this party.