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*props chin in hands*

I was diagnosed with OCD (and, to the surprise of absolutely no one, recurring major depression) about a month and half ago. Extensive testing administered by fellow grad students is a good thing!

It's pretty much a huge relief, because a lot of the treatment avenues for generalized or social anxiety or bipolar, which were the several guesses beforehand just weren't working in - various ways. But now I've started with a specialist and am working on figuring out how to pay for an intensive outpatient program and hopefully I will be able to work my brain into better shape!

I have talked with New Therapist and he agrees with me that daily blogging is a good exposure exercise. (I wimped out about that the past couple of days since I've seen him, and I feel terrible about it. but I will work harder!) So I'm going to keep at it.

I figure I also need to finally make myself catch up on my comments arrrrgh.

Uh, anyway that's what's going on and hopefully having made this post I'll find it easier to just keep talking about more or less nothing.

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Good luck with daily blogging! I've never tried that myself, but it does seem a bit tough, trying to come up with something to say every day. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck!

As for comments - maybe declare amnesty? Every once in a while I go back to my comments folder thinking "ugh, I should reply to this pile of stuff" and then it gets overwhelming.

Actually - in trying to remember the phrase I used, I searched my journal and found this actualfax comment amnesty post, so, enjoy? And I think it's a good idea to let them go - it should make it easier to start with a clean slate, yeah?

Thanks! I think, having tried it this month, for me the hardest part is feeling like it's okay to say things. But I am a pile of neuroses in general so.

That is a really good idea! Thank you for the post. I will sit with it and think about what I'm gonna do. It gets hard because there are so many comments I want to reply to, it's just that well. Fear issues, mostly.

Ah, yeah, I know how that is - but this is your journal! It is totally okay to say things. (I'm aware that might not actually help, but it's the best I can offer, sadly.)

I understand about wanting to answer comments, too - I let them pile up because they're SO GOOD and I want to have meaningful conversation, but in the end (for me, anyway), having the pile there is paralyzing and prevents me from posting new things, which is what I think most people would prefer anyway.

Actually it does help, at least a little! So thanks. :D

It's mostly meme answers I owe that I really cannot let go of - I haven't posted much else of substance this month! Starting small! Or possibly big, since if it's "of subtstance" I feel like I have more of a right to it thank you weird nerd culture mixed with gender issues, depending on how you look at it. So I maaaaay declare an amnesty and then just answer stuff anyway because I can. It's a mixed message but probably by now there's no one following me who can't cope with that.

:D I think most of us can handle that, yeah.

Basically my thought is people should do whatever they want, and I hate obligation. It's a motivation killer if there ever was one. So, if you remove the obligation and then choose to do something, then it's even MORE meaningful, at least from where I'm sitting.

Yay for having the words for things that mean you know what kind of help will be helpful! *hugs*

*hugs* Yes! It's pretty great!

Thank you. <3