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Nanni ([personal profile] tiamatschild) wrote2011-10-27 01:33 pm

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I had an appointment with an new psychiatrist yesterday. I am somewhat ambivalent about it.

I mean, see, the thing is - I'm very self aware. I know my fears are generally irrational, and I'm aware that worrying about what people think of me is... ... ...wrong. So I. I don't know, telling me that I don't need to worry about what people think of me because it's really none of my business makes me feel slightly sick. I know it's a failing. I know it's egotistical and -

...I'm pretty sure he meant to be reassuring, though.
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[personal profile] lotesse 2011-10-27 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
the same thing happens to me - I know all my buttons and triggers and strategies, and short of taking meds I don't see as there's much can be done with my head by anyone else.

It scares me sometimes, not feeling like I can count on psychiatry as a mental safety net.
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[personal profile] aldanise 2011-10-28 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
Irrational fears are worst because you can't reason them away but that still doesn't stop them from freezing you up and sapping your energy at the worst possible moments. I would...hope that a psychiatrist could understand that. My language teachers certainly do.

I hope the visits get better, if you do decide to stick with him.