Nanni (
tiamatschild) wrote2011-10-27 01:33 pm
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I had an appointment with an new psychiatrist yesterday. I am somewhat ambivalent about it.
I mean, see, the thing is - I'm very self aware. I know my fears are generally irrational, and I'm aware that worrying about what people think of me is... ... ...wrong. So I. I don't know, telling me that I don't need to worry about what people think of me because it's really none of my business makes me feel slightly sick. I know it's a failing. I know it's egotistical and -
...I'm pretty sure he meant to be reassuring, though.
I mean, see, the thing is - I'm very self aware. I know my fears are generally irrational, and I'm aware that worrying about what people think of me is... ... ...wrong. So I. I don't know, telling me that I don't need to worry about what people think of me because it's really none of my business makes me feel slightly sick. I know it's a failing. I know it's egotistical and -
...I'm pretty sure he meant to be reassuring, though.
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It scares me sometimes, not feeling like I can count on psychiatry as a mental safety net.
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Yeah, in my case I have a Rogerian therapist who's great at creating a safe space for me to talk it through, because she knows I know what's in my own head, but I needed a new perscription. So. Now I evidently have to work out how to convince New Person that I do, in fact, know my own mind. He did up my dosage, though! That's good!
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I hope the visits get better, if you do decide to stick with him.
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(...Although, actually, I am pretty sure that it does matter what other people think of you. What's unhealthy and irrational would be the morbid inability to expect acceptance and the constant self criticism. But we are social animals, and people whom nobody likes are in major trouble, soooooo...)
Thanks. :) I hope so too. I was having an anxiety upswing at the time, so I'm not sure I fully understood everything he was trying to convey.